I have found that I enjoy reading authentic writers. When I feel like I know the author and what is going on in their mind, I enjoy their writings even more. I like to read articles and pieces from authors that are honest and genuine.
So, here goes my attempt be a genuine and authentic writer. I had a lousy week.
Things did not go as I wanted or planned in a couple areas of my life. If I can be honest with you, I had a couple of really low days. These were not “kicking the dog” kind of days but days where I was just quiet. I was upset, disappointed, and candidly speechless a couple of times.
I sat down to write this journal and my pre-assigned verse for this week was Psalm 3:3, “But You, O Lord are a shield for me. My glory and the One who lifts up my head.” Certainly, a fitting verse for me more than ever.
Here is the story behind this verse. King David had fled Jerusalem because his son, Absolem, was trying to kill him. This verse is King David declaring his faith to the Lord, knowing that even though his life was in grave danger, he knew God would provide for him. 2 Samuel 15-18 chronicles the story in detail. So, I guess my challenges pale in comparison to running from your son who is trying to kill you.
Some days, I just don’t feel like I am at my best.
Some days, it feels like there are so many challenges and problems, I don’t know where to begin.
Some days, I am overwhelmed with uncertainty and self-doubt.
Do you ever have those days?
What I have come to know as a Christian is that it is not a matter of if, but when, bad days will happen. Life has disappointments, tragedy, sadness, and it is difficult.
What I know is that I worship a God that loves me. I know that my God wants what is best for me. I know that what is best for me is not always what I think the result should be, at the time. I know that I will continue to grow and that my God will be with me the entire way.
So what do I do now? I pray. I pray for discernment. I pray for guidance. I pray that I see what the Lord wants me to see. I pray that I do what the Lord wants me to do.
I by no means have all the answers to my questions right now. I have to deal with more challenges ahead. What I do know is that I will be alright. I trust my God. He will provide a path for my walk, eventually, with sunshine on my face and the wind at my back. Maybe not today, but I know it will happen.
If you need hope, Jesus is your refuge. Ask him for strength and resolve and He will be there for you, in due time. Be patient.
Heavenly Father. I pray to feel your guidance and presence in my life. I know you have a plan. I know you know that I don’t always like your plan. But, I trust you. I know you love me and will provide what is best. I pray for your guidance and that I follow what you want me to do. I pray that all who read this find their voice and peace in your Word. I pray that we turn to you in times of need and trouble and trust that you will provide. Amen.
